By entering through faith into what God has always wanted to do for us—set us right with him, make us fit for him—we have it all together with God because of our Master Jesus. And that’s not all: We throw open our doors to God and discover at the same moment that he has already thrown open his door to us. We find ourselves standing where we always hoped we might stand—out in the wide open spaces of God’s grace and glory, standing tall and shouting our praise. (Romans 5:1, 2 MSG)
This verse gets me every single time with a different revelation. It's crazy good and overwhelming at the same time.
First of all the thought that we have it all together because of Christ, it's not us at all. It still blows me away that nothing I say or do can make him love me less.
Guilt so often makes me feel this way, cos let's face it, even on my good days I am so crap at this and he so incredibly and passionately Loves me anyway. Like I have never been Loved before and I daily have to push away the thought that I don't deserve it and let him.
Second of all when I throw open my doors to him, because I have screwed up again, did something I knew I shouldn't have again or because I tried it on my own again and failed.
I am so used to dealing with everything on my own and sorting stuff out in my head before I ask for any sort of help, even from him.
But he is so patient with me in that the second I turn around and face him, he has been there the whole time and will continue to be there the whole time.
He never forces me to come to him, he just waits.
Regardless of anything I do, or how far I attempt to run or how deep I sink myself in, he is just waiting the whole time.
He has already thrown open his doors to me.
And in the end instead of feeling trapped in myself with my own thoughts and feelings, I am in his Grace again, exactly where I belong and exactly where I wanted to be the whole time.
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