Captured.

It comes most often as a quiet whisper, that somehow resounds within the noise of my mind.

His gentle voice, somehow always stronger and louder then any of the others. 

He urges me to look into his face again and again until it's the clearest thing I can see. 

Until everything else is a blur. 

I am in awe. 

I know his Love is solid and fierce, it covers every part of me. 

I become Instantly his once again, 

What once would call my attention away fades under the mist of his words. 

Each word surrounding me like fog until I see only him, I hear only his voice and I feel only his peace. 

As he captures my heart with a single word.

The answer is trust.

There is no trusting God until... 

It's not like we just trust God until we have it sorted or feel like we can handle stuff or until we are past the rough patch.. 

It's an every single day thing.. 

It's in the hard and the easy.

It's in the happy and the sad. 

It's in the good and the bad. 

We live our lives with trusting God as the first answer for every question and situation, and it needs to be not because it's the only option but because it's the best option. 

It's so easy to explain what having faith means to someone who has an amount of it.

It's almost impossible to explain why that is your go to answer for everything to someone who does not understand how to do the same, or why someone would. 

Over the past few weeks that's what I needed to do. 

I had to have someone come and assess who I was as a person and I had to be completely honest. 

Her actual job was to pick apart my life and make a judgement call based on what I told her. 

I needed to have answers to things I had never thought about. 

I had to explain situations and circumstances and how I came to be who I am today. 

I had to answer for future me as to how I would react in certain situations. 

Truth is sometimes I don't know. 

Sometimes I have no idea how God worked in a moment but I just know that he did. 

I have no idea how he will provide for me in the future, I just know that he always has and always will. 

I do not know if when something happens that I do not expect or cannot handle that I will respond in the way that I think I will now. 

I just know it will be ok. 

I don't know how I will trust God in the future or what that will look like. 

I just know that it's what I will do, because it's what has worked.

Because he doesn't fail. 

Because he has a way better idea about things then I do. 

Because he knows what will happen. 

Because he wants the best for me. 

Because he works all things for the good. 

Because he has all the answers and that means I don't need to. 

So the answer is trust. 

My response will be to trust Him. 

I don't know what that will look like In The future but I know it's not the only option I have, but it's the best option I have. 

Grace and Strength.

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (II Corinthians 12:9 NKJV)

We do not like to be weak. 

We don't like it when we are not good at things. 

Often avoiding those things altogether. 

Weakness speaks of being powerless and highlights our lack. 

At best we can just try not to draw too much attention to it. 

To focus on our strengths and do more of what we are good at. 

Jesus can't always work with that. 

It seems that even though we have nothing to prove we keep trying to.

That even though we know He is enough we still do not completely rest in his sufficiency. 

The enemy always wants to throw your weakness in your face. 

He wants you to feel like your not enough. 

He wants you to keep striving in your own strength and then turn away ashamed. 

Ultimately he wants your weakness to drive you away from God. 

Jesus doesn't care about that. 

He covers your weaknesses. 

His Grace is always enough. 

I feel like this verse is here to lift the world off our shoulders when we feel like we are carrying it, even though we don't have to. 

Because if His grace is enough then it means we do not need to be. 

Because if his strength is made perfect in our weakness it mean it's ok if sometimes we are weak. 

As long as we wear His grace. 

As long as we allow his strength to cover our weaknesses. 

Thank you Isaiah!

So I said: “Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips, And I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; For my eyes have seen the King, The LORD of hosts.” Then one of the seraphim flew to me, having in his hand a live coal which he had taken with the tongs from the altar. And he touched my mouth with it, and said: “Behold, this has touched your lips; Your iniquity is taken away, And your sin purged.” (Isaiah 6:5-7 NKJV)

I Love Isaiah! He's one of my favorite prophets in the bible. 

I caught this verse and started reading up on him like crazy. 

He speaks of our saviour years before his arrival. 

He speaks of being cleansed. 

He speaks of being chosen. 

He speaks of being anointed by God and Jesus read verses out of his book in the temple.

But before all this there is this verse, a glimpse of his humility and humanity. Then a glimpse of Gods mercy and power and the moment the coal touches his lips he is cleansed of everything. 

Then in the very next verse God asks him who he should send, not a perfect person just someone who knew he was not worthy without Him. 

And he could have said no. 

He could have held onto his sin. 

He could have stayed in the state of unworthiness. 

But he didn't, he let the coal touch his lips. 

He said yes. 

He changed history forever!