When I don't feel like it.

What is Leading you? 

I asked God to give me something I can use and when I opened my bible app this was the first thing that popped up: 

"My counsel is this: Live freely, animated and motivated by God’s Spirit. Then you won’t feed the compulsions of selfishness. For there is a root of sinful self-interest in us that is at odds with a free spirit, just as the free spirit is incompatible with selfishness. These two ways of life are antithetical, so that you cannot live at times one way and at times another way according to how you feel on any given day. Why don’t you choose to be led by the Spirit and so escape the erratic compulsions of a law-dominated existence? (Galatians 5:16-18 MSG)"

I have found that when I am led by what I feel I am selfish and I hate it. 

The past few weeks God has been pushing me to do things that I do not want to do, go places I don't really want to go and then just stay. 

The things that gets me about this verse is that you cannot be led by the spirit and by your feelings. Trust me when you do that it ends up ruining everything. 

When you choose God even when it's so incredibly hard, you end up in freedom regardless of how many trials it takes to get there. 

So lately when all I have wanted to do is be in my bed snuggling my kitten, he calls me to go somewhere where he will speak to me. 

When all I have wanted to do is run, he's calling me to stay. 

When all I have wanted to do is to walk in offense, he calls me to pray instead. 

When all I have wanted to do is exactly what I feel like doing, he is calling me to go where he is leading me. 

Directly into his freedom. 

Directly to him. 

And when it all comes down to it that's where I am choosing to go.