Time to pray!

Time to pray.

I was reading John 17 and decided to read a devotion on it to help me better understand to context and how it apply's to my life etc. 

I came across the question: do you have special times reserved only for praying? 

And I had to answer no, I don't even have times reserved for seeking God, for studying his word or for even just reading it! 

I do read his word and I do pray. But it's not a priority as it should be and I wonder why I struggle so much with flesh and sin and  not feeling close to God. 

I find it hard to focus in worship and even giving him my best for just one song is an effort! What? Worship and effort... 

I cannot sit through the preaching or take notes or contribute in connect discussions... 

I find serving is making me weary and frustrated.. 

I avoid fellowship more often then I seek it out.. 

Even as I write this I feel shocked and even I little ashamed at where this has ended up! 

I am so caught up with the dream that God has placed on my heart, that I have failed to place God on my heart. 

When he should never have been moved from there. 

Something has to change. 

I need to actively be putting more of him into my heart and life, instead of him just being around about in my world. 

I have the hunger and the passion, I just listened to a song that made my soul ache for him like nothing else, yet just last night he called me to worship him and I resisted! 

So many things in my world have led me here.

I am inspired by The beautiful Mumma I have been blessed with who gets up every morning, puts on worship and just talks to God. 

She just talks to him and commits her day to him, prays for us and thanks him for her life! 

So in my journey it's time to pray! 

Time to set aside time to pray.

Time to seek his face like my life depends on it because it actually does. 

Making dreams come true.

I think everybody has a dream, an end goal or purpose that they eventually want to get to. This is kind of like their ideal life that they want to live, most people would dream or imagine it. What kind of job they will have, what kind of house they will live in and who they will marry.

I think that few people think about making their dreams come true.

For me I have a God dream, it's something that I believe God wants me to do with my life, something he spoke to me about more clearly then anything else he has ever said (big call I know!)  At first it was just something that I imagined in my mind and due to my extensive imagination, it was in detail as if I had played it out like a movie over and over again and yes I wanted it to happen but did not really believe it would, therefore not really doing anything to move forward with it. But I couldn't ignore the fact that I could see it so clearly, for years I could imagine what it would be like to the detail and began to believe that it would happen one day.
 Then something Changed in me, one day as I was casually Dreaming about my Far away future and  What I would do for God, I felt God say that this Dream is for Now, Not one day when....And as if I realised that I had everything I need in me to do this now, I felt ready, I felt capable.When "Now" turned into months and then a year I grew frustrated at God for not making this happen.
In fact the opposite happened and I seemed so much further away and when I got closer something would happen again and I'd ask God "When are you going to make me Dream come True?" and then.........
He asked me the Same thing......

How Deep his Love really is.

Tonight I cannot stop thinking about this song, I have heard it before but yesterday I must have just realised the Reality of the words.  I could go through it word for word and explain why each verse means so much, but I think it needs individual revelation to have meaning. So tonight I am still thinking about the reality of what he did for me and how great the price must have been for him, I realized that he actually felt pain for me, He actually chose the cross for me, chose me over himself and exchanged his life for my own and his very last breath was what brought me the freedom that I honestly take for granted most days. I hope as you read it the words remind you just How deep the father Love for us really is.... How deep the Father's love for us  How vast beyond all measure That He should give His only Son And make a wretch His treasure How great the pain of searing loss The Father turns His face away As wounds which mar the Chosen One Bring many sons to glory Behold the man upon the cross My sin upon His shoulder Ashamed I hear my mocking voice Call out among the scoffers It was my sin that held Him there Until it was accomplished His dying breath has brought me life I know that it is finished I will not boast in anything No gifts, no power, no wisdom But I will boast in Jesus Christ His death and resurrection Why should I gain from His reward I cannot give an answer But this I know with all my heart His wounds have paid my ransom

Album- Restoration