I'm going to be honest here and say that this verse frustrates me just a little bit.
Lately because it's been on my mind everyday, not because I heard it or read about it but more then likely because I may have been inwardly getting tired of always doing what I need to do as apposed to what I want to be doing which to be honest, is often sleeping or watching tv till my eyes fall out.
Sometimes "doing good" is hard, inconvenient and exhausting.
It is always a choice.
It means being the bigger person.
It means giving without expecting to gain.
It means choosing not act out on emotion or react before thinking how it will effect someone else.
It means putting people before ourselves.
And while I am still being honest, sometimes, I don't want to.
Maybe that explains why I cannot for the life of me stop thinking about this verse.
However today when I read it I was reminded of the second half " at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up"
As much as I would really love to know when that proper time will be, I am learning to be completely ok with doing good because it's bigger then my own little world, even if that means that "harvest" is not for me.
It led me to ask myself.
What if my doing good is adding to someone else's harvest?
What if my doing good is helping someone else not give up for a little longer?
What if my doing good isn't actually about me?
More then all this is the fact that while we could be right on the verge of giving up the harvest could be just a moment away.
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